Wednesday, September 8, 2010

alone at last

so what did i do
on my first day alone
since summer began?
for two and half glorious hours,
four days a week?

work out?*
shop?
clean house?**
yardwork?

nope.
i got in my car
and cried.
all the way home.
while sting sang
"fields of gold" -

i blubbered so much
i couldn't see the road.
everything was blurry.
i thought about
how grown-up she looked,
how she walked away so easily,
how she didn't cry even a little bit.

i thought about
never having any more babies to hold.

oh jeez.
well, there's always tomorrow.
right?

*work out, that is so funny.
**clean house, okay that might be funnier.

4 comments:

Cristie Ritz King said...

ditto and I still have one at home. WTH.

Carla said...

you can come over and hold Luci any time!

One Sided Momma said...

this parenting business is such serious heartache, is it not?

Bonnie said...

There are always grandchildren. I hope you have back up copies of all this stuff. I see a book.